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[Morgan McLeod]

Um, hello... congratulations on Final 3.

With that out of the way I do want to say that I am really confused, I feel like I watched a completely different game than what everyone seems to be claiming it is. Everyone is saying that this game was “so much fun” and how “hard” it was... I recall most people complained about how boring the game was for a majority of the game, and how personal it got at the merge, yet right now we are all happy and saying how amazing the whole experience was...? I'm confused dude. I am also slightly drunk, so...

I am also pretty bothered by how many people [and Sean particularly] say that I wouldn't make moves because I was friend with a bunch of people pre-game, news flash the only two people I was friends with before the game were Jay and Malcolm, AND I didn't make moves because it didn't seem smart for me not because I was friends with either before the game.

Regardless, unlike all the other jurors I am not all sunshine and rainbows, I am not going to be the bigger person, and I am not going to pretend like I had a blast or that I think you all played fantastic games at all. I do, however, want to point out that I am NOT bitter about the game, I honestly don't give a single fuck about the game, I am bitter because to me it felt extremely personal, and I feel like my character was attacked even after I was voted out [though most of that is not your fault as a F3, so I won't go into all of it].

Jay actually asked something I am very curious about, because I believe when we play alias games we become a character, and the story-arc of said character is something that intrigues me a whole lot. So, I will be paying a lot of attention to his question.

Now, a few comments:
RC – You are sweet. I have zero ill feelings towards you. I do not think you played an outstanding game by any means at all, but you and I also barely talked so it was hard to see that. Apparently people in my ear want me to vote for you, though.
Sean – Coming in, I was thinking I was going to vote for my boy Sean because I know how hard you tried to play the game, but reading your answers I am just like: no. I'm sorry that you feel I fucked up your whole game with one vote, but if your game really relied on one single vote, and one single person was able to fuck it up... and you and others wanna be smug and throw it in my face over and over... like, is that really what fucked your game up? Was I, oh so horrible, for wanting to vote out Silas who had tried to vote me out, and had zero interest in working with me, over someone who had consistently had my back? But hey, keep slinging dirt my way to save face, that's cool too.
Brenda – I still do not understand the fake idol bullshit, and it bugs me that after confronting you about it you denied denied denied even though I was aware of what was going on. We could have had a laugh about it, but instead you decided to try to humiliate me for absolutely no reason. And then you ask why I couldn't trust you the whole game. Out of the three people here I am the most bitter towards you, because I feel that much like the idol thing, you did a lot of things that had zero game purpose and just to hurt me. Considering how close I thought we got from a personal stand point I viewed a lot of these things as hurtful to the point where I was ready to block you from fb/AIM at one point because I was completely over how fake I thought you were being with me in a personal level.

Normally, I like asking questions about the game that would make me realize who the best player is so that I can vote for them, but quite frankly I give no fucks about this game because I thought up to the Malcolm vote it was boring, and after that it was personal. Which is odd for me, because I am someone who realizes this is just a game, and VERY rarely holds any grudges.

I honestly really wanted to play next season since the theme is something I am very passionate about, but after seeing just exactly how I am perceived as a person for things I believe are unwarranted, I am honestly probably going to take a big, long break from anything related to ORG's because this community only seems to destroy my self-esteem, and fuck that bullshit I am generally a happy person.

Anyways, this is starting to become melodramatic, and you people probably give no fucks. So... I guess you can try to convince me, why I should vote for you. And honestly I hated this game SO much so I do not care if you were the most strategic, or the best player ever, because the path I was forced to take on this game was a rather personal one.

Oh, I also want you to explain to me why I was such a “villain” and “hated” by so many people in this game. I actually would love that, because I believe in self-growth and even though I have no interest in continuing with a lot of people, and this community, I will like to learn this to aid me in my real life.


Thanks,
Morgan // Alex.

[brenda]

Yeah Morgan, the game was pretty boring pre-merge, but what was fun was making the connections I did then - namely yours and Savage's.  You know how much we bonded. That was real. But after the merge, with the constant flipping and changing of votes, when you look back at it, yeah. It was fun, and it was hard, and it was grueling. It was personal, but that's why it was so hard. I wouldn't say I had  fun playing, but the game itself was definitely a fun one.

Onto the discussion of the fake idol. I originally crafted that to give you it in order to follow through with your "how I can gain your trust back" wish. I expected it would be simple. I wrote in my confessional that I was giving it to you, and thought Brandon would just do the work, but apparently that wasn't the case. I didn't know though. ANd then he told me to plant it in a post for you to find, so that I did. But apparently that didn't work either, so I just gave up on it. I really just wanted you to not hate me, in all honesty, and that probably wasn't the best way to go about it. I hated the way you treated me after the Malcolm vote, and I felt it was VERY undeserved. I kept you out of the loop of that because, from what I knew, you and Malcolm were tight, which led me to believe you'd want me out right along with him. Especially considering I also knew your true ally was Sean, not me, so I wasn't in your endgame plans. I know you're the "straightforward, say what you mean, in your face" type or whatever, but that isn't me. I'm not loud and abrasive. I don't publicly ridicule people like Ethan every chance I get. 

When it comes to you being such a villain, I mean, girl. You were the biggest villain of Transylvania. You were loud, aggressive, and berated anyone who you wanted. Coming into this game, you were a public presence day one, badmouthing Brandon and his twists and various players throughout. I think pretty much everyone saw you as a villain. That's just how you came across. I got to know you, and I know you're a sweetheart with generally good intentions, but Alex. Seriously. You have to know you came across very negative a lot. OTTN5 a few rounds for sure.

Beyond the fake idol thing, I did NOTHING just to hurt you. In fact, the round Silas went, I saved you from having to vote your friend Sam by switching the vote off of you. The Malcolm round wasn't to hurt you, it was to get out someone against me. Yes, you told me rounds later that you had defended me to him, but don't you think that would've been nice to know? From what I knew, Malcolm wanted me out, and you were right there with him. I had no means of knowing otherwise until you told me. If you had told me the round Malcolm left that he mentioned voting me out and you defended me, I wouldn't have voted him out. That's 100% true. I had no intentions on betraying you for no reason.

The fact that you wanted to block me is a little disheartening. I really don't see why you think I was so personally against you. I mostly only had good things to say about you. Yeah, I agreed with Sean on the fact that you really made no moves and simply were loud and mouthy. That's the truth. Beyond that, you were hilarious, very capable of holding conversations, and intriguing on many levels.

I don't think I'll ever understand fully why you've been so adamantly against me since the Malcolm vote. And I probably never will. But I just want you to understand that I was never malicious towards you. My connections with people were always genuine. If I couldn't make a genuine connection with someone, I wouldn't fake it. 

Sorry.

[rc]

Rico!
I think something must be wrong with me because I really enjoyed this entire game! Even when I lost numbers I had fun , but I also didn't feel personally attacked and never felt offended if things didn't go my way. The ONLY time I complained was when we had the stupid posting challenges, I hate them!!!!

Just to clear up a misconception that I've heard - Morgan and I are not friends, we did not know each other before the game. We are both isurvivor alumns and we heard of each other but this game is the first time we communicated.

You and I just couldnt get past the "hi how are you" chat. It was frustrating because I voted with you to get Savage out and then tied it & saved you the next round but you never opened the door to strategize with me, and I didn't either. I remember telling Jay around the Courtney boot that I knew everyone said you were such a big threat but I just didn't see it. I could tell you didn't care and seemed to just be pissed that the game wasn't going your way.

I'm sorry you had a bad experience. Next season will be different, your a good player, I've seen your iS confessionals, I like Rico much more than Morgan, you should reconsider! But whether its cys or a different game don't take a break or end your org life due to a bad experience - fight back and end on a good note. This is my 5th game, every game prior I have left frustrated with myself, which has given me the desire to keep playing. I know you say I didn't play a great game but compared to my others I am 100% satisfied, I played hard from the beginning, I made gutsy moves, I didn't feel like I was a goat and I don't feel like I hurt any of my friends. Orgs are hard with a baby, I plan on taking a break after this but I like I said I'm satisfied with my game. Don't walk away until you are satisfied too. <3

[jefra]

Morgan my sweetheart don't be rude to them.
We are to pretty for that!

[Sean]

Morgan <3

I've said what i needed to say to you, but again I didnt intend to throw that move in your face as a personal thing. Cause its really, one of the biggest moves i TRIED to do. Moves are still moves even if they don't work right? ROFL. But yeah.

And idk why you were percieved as the villain. Maybe cause you wanted the character Morgan to be a bitch and people took it too far cause there really were no other villainous people in the cast. So all the frustration and anger just went to you.

Loves you and im glad we played this game together