Post by rc on Nov 23, 2014 8:42:26 GMT -5
I feel like my confidence in my game is gone. I felt like I was doing so well, planning and thinking ahead. I put myself in a positionevery round to be one of the main people deciding on the vote but this round is different.
First, I lost both Ian and Jamie lady round. Jamie has been my main person since we started, we were so close to being back together but apparently he didn't work hard in the challenge. And I had my doubts about Ian long term but he was still a solid number on my current tribe. Now I feel like I'm disposable. The plan was to vote Courtney out. When I woke up yesterday Silas wrote Jefra and I in our group chat asking if the plan was still good. But there was no response. A few hours later I had a message from Silas saying he Jefra and court all voted for cliff and we need to stick to Courtney BC she can give us Brenda at the merge. I'm ok with the plan, I like brenda, I just don't like that I wasn't included and Courtny apparently was. She is so short with me - she iMes me and said "did Silas or Jefra fill you in" I said yes and that was it. I felt like Jefra was short with me yesterday too but I know she had a busy week and was pretty quiet last round too.
To add to my paranoia Malcolmis here and I'm one of his targets. I had a decent chat with him just clearing the air about the first few rounds. He was honest about how pissed he was / is and was honest and just said I felt like I would be a goat if I sided with him and Heidi and this season I really wanted to step out of nh comfort zone and play. I reminded him I'm not a bitter juror (I voted for Yul after he screwed me over) and told him if he helped me make jury I would vote for him. I'm just trying to buy myself some time to figure things out. So who knows what he will try and pull.
I think the main reason I'm so paranoid is every round we tell the person going home that we are voting for cliff. Then they are blindsided. I really doubt Silas would be in on a plan to take me out....Jefra is unpredictable. Ugh I'm calming down. I'll just vote for cliff and hope it actually happens this time.?
First, I lost both Ian and Jamie lady round. Jamie has been my main person since we started, we were so close to being back together but apparently he didn't work hard in the challenge. And I had my doubts about Ian long term but he was still a solid number on my current tribe. Now I feel like I'm disposable. The plan was to vote Courtney out. When I woke up yesterday Silas wrote Jefra and I in our group chat asking if the plan was still good. But there was no response. A few hours later I had a message from Silas saying he Jefra and court all voted for cliff and we need to stick to Courtney BC she can give us Brenda at the merge. I'm ok with the plan, I like brenda, I just don't like that I wasn't included and Courtny apparently was. She is so short with me - she iMes me and said "did Silas or Jefra fill you in" I said yes and that was it. I felt like Jefra was short with me yesterday too but I know she had a busy week and was pretty quiet last round too.
To add to my paranoia Malcolmis here and I'm one of his targets. I had a decent chat with him just clearing the air about the first few rounds. He was honest about how pissed he was / is and was honest and just said I felt like I would be a goat if I sided with him and Heidi and this season I really wanted to step out of nh comfort zone and play. I reminded him I'm not a bitter juror (I voted for Yul after he screwed me over) and told him if he helped me make jury I would vote for him. I'm just trying to buy myself some time to figure things out. So who knows what he will try and pull.
I think the main reason I'm so paranoid is every round we tell the person going home that we are voting for cliff. Then they are blindsided. I really doubt Silas would be in on a plan to take me out....Jefra is unpredictable. Ugh I'm calming down. I'll just vote for cliff and hope it actually happens this time.?