Confessional #3

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Yay for winning the challenge! I'm still nervous about Malcolm and Heidi staying in the game but it feels good to win. Happy to see Carter go, I chatted with him briefly and he seemed annoying - apparently Ciera is Mary, I chatted with her as well and she never told me who she was so I could really care less she got voted out.

This round we have tribe leaders, Malcolm asked us to vote for him and everyone agreed bc we didn't really want to cause problems. He's smart, I see a few scenarios happening - if we loose he is safe IF he or Heidi have an idol they can play it on her and get one of us out - OR we win and he goes to another tribal council and poison all of them against us. I don't think letting Malcolm be the leader is a good idea but I feel like I played so hard so fast last round I need to back down a little so I'm not viewed as a threat or like I'm in control of my alliance.

Jamie and I had good talks over the weekend, he's my #1 strategy person, we seem to be on the same page and both think ahead. We thought this could be a posting challenge and agreed we would try and throw it (with Silas) but it's not and I'm afraid to loose this round bc of a possible idol so we'll just see what happens.

Ian and I had a chance to catch up too. We don't have a lot of "game talk" but it's important to build social connections so we just chat about random things.

That's all for now! Xoxo

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SO we lost - obv we threw it. I HATE throwing challenges and I question if it was the right move. The plan tonight is to vote out Heidi, she is a past winner and has friends in the game. I feel really bad, she is so sweet, she has been chatting with me since yesterday trying to figure out what vote is best for our tribe. She told me she was deciding between Ian, Jamie & Ethan because they never talk to her. She and I finally agreed on Ian - she wanted Ethan out bc he is deadweight in challenge but she is afraid he has the bomb shelter idol. So finally decided to vote for Ian because he is busy with play practice and Jamie is more helpful in challenges. I agree with her original thought - Ethan would be the smartest boot, the kid never helps the tribe out and is not active. But we pulled him into the alliance and I believe he is a more reliable number than Heidi. And at this point it will be impossible for me to change the vote because my tribe is NEVER AROUND.

Onto Andrew & Brian - its hard to know what to do with them because we don't want to give them too much info. I like Andrew a lot, I have since the beginning, I did tell him the names I've heard are Ian and Heidi, I think its best for us to just tell them the majority of the tribe is voting for Heidi because #1 they can't change the results and #2 maybe it will form a connection if we swap and end up together. I doubt I will go this far but I've even thought about talking to Andrew about a possible cross tribe alliance - say if and when we swap our 2 tribes, no matter what the numbers are, stick together and get Brian's tribe off first and then we can fight it out when we merge. BUT like I said last entry, I need to tone it down a little because I played so hard last round - I don't want people to see me as a threat. BUT the idea is tempting, maybe if Jamie or Silas get on I'll give them the idea and see if they are interested in bringing it up.

Hopefully everything goes as planned, but as always, I am prepared for anything....it could be me. we'll see!