Confessionals

[tanya]

Round 1




I'm Not too thrilled about this tribe! I offered Morgan an alliance since she is one of the few I have a prior relationship with, but her response seemed more force than enthusiastic:


"I would be cool with that, that sounds like a good idea"

Can you at least pretend to be interested in working with me?



 I do like Sean though, I am closest to him right now ( Brandon knows, I love my darkies).  Unfortunately I lost the chat, but he said he knows I'm a 3 time winner but he really likes and wants to work with me anyway, exactly what I wanted to hear!



Brian and I got along in Gobi Desert, although we were never really on the same side. I'm going to try and approach him with something as well. If he feels like I won't be targeting maybe he'll let his guard down a bit. But would him and Morgan sell be down the river in a heartbeat? Absolutely, I just need them to not go out of their way to do it



She's a goof, and I'm thankful for her being her as the obvious first boot of the first. I know how to get along with her despite the language barrier, and I don't see her targeting me out of the gate.




Carter and Jay are unknowns to me. Sean revealed that him and Carter have some history and it isn't all that great, something I'm keeping in my back pocket for now. Anything that puts a target on someone else's back that ain't mine I need right now. Jay I believe was pre-juror in that fvF season...he's a complete unknown to anyone, and I havent spoken to him yet, so I can't say how he will fall into my game.



Unless I hit off great with either of those 2 gentlemen, I'm hoping for a sort of loose 4 person alliance with Morgan, Brian and Sean ( loose in that...we are all kinda working together but we don't have an alliance chat kinda thing). I just need to be careful about how I go about it.  Thankfully, I can actually make it to the very first challenge of the game, and it being live if I contribute a fair amount they really can't justifiable boot me first if we lose, and I'll prove myself valuable enough to keep around for immunity. 

[tanya]

Still round 1, we barely won the first challenge, no thanks to me though, I contributed NOTHING to it lol., and was the slowest to finish posting. Not the best way to start this adventure for me! I'm a little annoyed the Esteban tribe won't be losing any power, but likely gaining a little in Ethan joining and replacing a weak player! That's kinda lame!

[tanya]

Brandon, I think you might enjoy this:

[Host Brandon]

HAHAHAHAHA #dies

[tanya]

Round 2: Final 21:


I would like to see the entire Escambia picture, half of it is cut off! BLAH...I kinda had a feeling we were gonna lose this but whatever, it is what it is. Sean-Morgan and I have basically formed a pretty tight 3-some. The 3 of us have kind of agreed that we like Jay, so he's sort of the 4th. He probably knows it too, but he should at least be safe until a swap so he won't do anything too drastic.

Morgan is kind of taking charge of this though, and is being like HBIC.


Tanya Vance 6:02 pm

SOOOO....u talk to Brian at all Im about to

LOL!



Sean Rector 6:02 pm

not really about the vote

Morgan says she is thinking of voting Brian lol

jefra said that as well



Tanya Vance 6:03 pm

Jefra! ok that makes it a little easier, then we don't need to stress about Carter voting you

we'll have 4



Sean Rector 6:03 pm

yeah, and Morgan said Jay would do it as well?

but who knows
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Tanya Vance 6:05 pm

ok since we're going to TC, depressed Tanya time

:-(

Sean is willing to put his feud with Carter on the back burner for a bit he tells me



Morgan McLeod 6:07 pm

me and him were talking about possibly doing Brian this round

since he is barely around



Tanya Vance 6:10 pm

I was honestly hoping for that, because I feel guilty voting Carter this vote at least



Morgan McLeod 6:10 pm

mhm agreed

but he is gone next

for sure

[tanya]

So right now, I feel a lot more confident than I did at the beginning, Sean Morgan and I seem to be in control. We are the most socially active so it seems fitting to me. I also have had really good talks with Jay, Carter and Jefra...Brian is the only one I could barely connect with because he has this tendency of talking for 2 minutes, leaving, then coming back like 5 hours later and our conversations would be nothing but little snippets. I have tried many times to communicate with him but it just hasn't flowing, and on top of that him and Alicia were very close in Gobi, so that cuts one loose end. Alicia is an extremely savvy and manipulative player and doesn't need Brian to help her.

If we were to truthfully vote off the least active, it would be Jay. He informed me today he hurt himself and thats why he hasnt been on, when I asked how he never responded. The thing is Jay isn't really a threat to anyone, he's an easy vote off if we need it, or an easy number on our side.

Carter and Sean have a bit of feud, and although it was put on the back burner for this vote, it's a problem because I want to work with Sean longer term, and the enemy of my friend is also my enemy. I'd go for Carter now but he is pretty damn active and he really put his heart and soul into that poster, so it seems wrong to screw him over now, but next vote for pure strategic reasons, he really needs to go. I'm also enjoying Jefra and I'm pretty sure she'd work with me in the future as well, and I'd even put her above Jay in my book, the only issue with her is her connections to the other CYS12 cast members like Cliff/Ethan (whom she doesn't care for) and RC, which I will need to ask her about, but RC doesn't seem long for this game anyway.

[tanya]

Oh Heck no! No changes please Sean! and Brian is IMing me an hour before the deadline...he isnt gonna be on the jury and there isn't any benefit to me talking to him, so I guess ill just ignore him...

so sad



Tanya Vance 4:59 pm

spoke to Jefra last night she was on board for Brian



Sean Rector 5:00 pm

Good good!

Except I may be having second thoughts :x



Tanya Vance 5:01 pm

oh interestin, did Brian make any good arguments?



Sean Rector 5:02 pm

Well not particularly LOL

I just think he'd be more loyal to us than others



Tanya Vance 5:03 pm

at least until he ends with Alicia again:-P



Sean Rector 5:04 pm

Rofl. That's a valid point



Tanya Vance 5:05 pm

in my season, he opted to mutiny from my tribe to be on her tribe



Sean Rector 5:05 pm

Lol. Oh



Tanya Vance 5:06 pm

lol yea it fucked us up



Sean Rector 5:06 pm

Alright. Nvm what I just said then



Tanya Vance 5:09 pm

lol its no worries

[tanya]

Whelp...Brian I gotta give some credit. He saved himself last minute. Carter had a dumbass moment, and admitted he was close to Jefra and would prefer to go before her. This kind of gave Brian an in here, cause we can break up their pair. The think I hate about this move is by doing this, we are alienating Jefra..which isn't good. Her reaction to this will determine whether we stick with her or vote her off next. She ain't gonna be happy:

Tanya Vance 7:27 pm
Its a Threesome

Sean Rector 7:27 pm


Tanya Vance 7:27 pm
Sean got enough for us to share?

Morgan McLeod 7:27 pm
lmfao ew
okay, we need to figure this shit out like right now

Sean Rector 7:28 pm
lolol
yes
Carter or Brian

Tanya Vance 7:28 pm
Here's what I'm worried about, well we can at least tell Jay
but Jefra...is gonna be PISSED

Sean Rector 7:28 pm
we can just pm her, no?

Morgan McLeod 7:28 pm
yeah

Tanya Vance 7:28 pm
she's probably asleep, she from Poland

Morgan McLeod 7:28 pm
I def think she is not gonna be happy at all

Tanya Vance 7:29 pm
if we keep with Brian, everyone is cool with us still

Sean Rector 7:29 pm
but we keep Carter

Tanya Vance 7:29 pm
and we can get out Carter or Jefra next

Sean Rector 7:29 pm
who isnt trustworthy

Morgan McLeod 7:29 pm
carter is def out before jefra 100%
do you think Brian would wanna work with us long run?
so then we can do carter-jefra?

Sean Rector 7:29 pm
why wouldn't he?

Morgan McLeod 7:29 pm
if she reacts badly, that is

Tanya Vance 7:29 pm
I do think he would unless he ended up with Alicia

Sean Rector 7:29 pm
i dont see how she could be THAT pissed
if a pm was sent to her like 'SHIT GOT CRAY IT SWITCHED'
like, shit switches all the time right before the vote
i think if we saved Brian, he'd be nearly in debt to us?

Morgan McLeod 7:31 pm
right

Sean Rector 7:31 pm
Carter would throw anyone under the bus to save himself :x
i dont think Brian would

Morgan McLeod 7:31 pm
he would

Tanya Vance 7:32 pm
yea he is that kind of player

Morgan McLeod 7:32 pm
so...

Sean Rector 7:32 pm
:x
haha

Tanya Vance 7:32 pm
I think if we go this route though, Jefra will definitely flip a the swap ( I know how she is)

Morgan McLeod 7:32 pm
hm

Sean Rector 7:33 pm
even with a pm?

Tanya Vance 7:33 pm
so we'd be kinda have to vote her next.... and stick with Brian all the way

Morgan McLeod 7:33 pm
Jay says he wants to save Brian ftr

Sean Rector 7:33 pm
i think her reaction would depend if she goes next or not

Morgan McLeod 7:33 pm
we just need to decide soon, isnt votes due in like 30?

Tanya Vance 7:33 pm
exactly

Morgan McLeod 7:33 pm
agreed with Sean, if we do it

Sean Rector 7:33 pm
yes in 30 lol

Tanya Vance 7:33 pm
if Jefra flips her shit

Morgan McLeod 7:34 pm
so, do we wanna do this?

Sean Rector 7:34 pm
i do :X

Morgan McLeod 7:35 pm
I do too
Tanya?

Tanya Vance 7:35 pm
Im obviously on the fence but ill go with it, like Carter will flip on Sean first chance he gets
and Brian wouldnt
so I think it makes sense

Morgan McLeod 7:36 pm
okay, lets make this happen
I'll send a PM to Jefra ASAP

Tanya Vance 7:36 pm
I'm changing, make sure we tell Jay

Sean Rector 7:36 pm
kk making a new parchment now lolz

Morgan McLeod 7:36 pm
I just IM'd Jay
me too

Tanya Vance 7:41 pm
made a new one too

[tanya]

Final 19:

Well this tribe leaders twist, there is a huge temptation for us to send one of ourselves and gain a little power/influence if we win the challenge. The problem is if we lose and we send one of our own alliance members out as a Tribe Leader, we are losing a vote, and on top of that 2 tribe leaders will be coming over to our tribe. What will those tribe leaders want to do? If I was a tribe leaders, I'd try to flip the script on the tribe, and help the players on the bottom usurp power. This is why we can't send one of our own alliance members...we need a voting block to keep ourselves safe. As long as Sean-Morgan-Jay and I stick together, even if 2 Tribe Leaders come over and team up with Jefra, we have the 4-3 advantage. It's kind of a bummer giving away such a cool power to Brian, but maybe it will make him trust us all more and stick with us. We can't risk Brian staying here and sending away say Sean, because Brian-Jefra can easily team with the 2 tribe leaders and screw one of us. ESPECIALLY IF ALICIA IS THE ONE TO COME HERE WITH BRIAN. So we gotta do the safest thing.

Morgan McLeod 10:32 pm 

yeah, Jay will def be with us 

Sean Rector 10:33 pm 

Well. Don't make it Jefra in case we lose. We won't be able to vote her 

Tanya Vance 10:34 pm 

then yea Probably Brian 

Morgan McLeod 10:35 pm 

sounds good 

the only thing that makes me nervous is giving brian to alicia, possibly 

Tanya Vance 10:40 pm 

Tanya Vance 10:22 pm 

Tribe leader doesnt vote iat our TC if we lose? 

Brandon C 10:39 pm 

right 

well, Brian comes back to our tribe after 

Morgan McLeod 10:40 pm 

right 

but he can form them bonds 

Tanya Vance 10:42 pm 

Yea fer sure, if we send one of us though, we got 3 votes with Jay, but...as long as Brian and Jefra will be voting each other 

Tanya Vance 10:42 pm 

then we're ok 

The tribe leaders will want to help whoever is on the bottom take out the stronger players on the tribe 

Morgan McLeod 10:44 pm 

agreed  

Morgan McLeod 10:44 pm 

tho it worries me if they dont do that like brian 

Tanya Vance 10:45 pm 

what if we send Jay? 

Sean Rector 10:47 pm 

Do we really think Brian would go against us if he stays? 

Morgan McLeod 10:47 pm 

isnt jay gonna vote with us 100% tho? 

Tanya Vance 10:48 pm 

Brian I expect would vote Jefra, but with the tribe leaders (what if Alicia comes over....) 

one of us would be screwed if Brian-Jefra + 2 tribe leaders target us 

Morgan McLeod 10:49 pm 

right, so then lets send brian away 

Tanya Vance 10:49 pm 

So I think the safest thing to do is send Brian, and no matter what, even if the tribe leaders support Jefra, it should be 4-3 

Yup 

Sean Rector 10:50 pm 

Ah. Two leaders come over gotha  

Yeah. I'll vote Brian for it 

Tanya Vance 10:50 pm 

yah...IF we lose 

Sean Rector 10:51 pm 

Right. Right.  

Morgan McLeod 10:51 pm 

i wish one of us could go 

but its so risky 

Sean Rector 10:52 pm 

Yeah I wish one of us could go too haha 

Morgan McLeod 10:52 pm 

i mean our chances of losing is like 1/3 

but its still risky 

Tanya Vance 10:52 pm 

me too, it would be fucking awesome to do that

[tanya]

Final 19- Continued!

Well he made the safe choice in Brian, we were intending on switching once we started winning thanks in large part to my going into Bipolar Hypermania mode and posting 100 Bayamon flags. Now Brian gets to go to Escambia and make alliances and form friendships and deals and all the like.  Damn! It was a calculated risk, cause if we lost we had an instant out by voting off Jefra, but in a way it can maybe be used to my advantage. I had PMed Brian I was voting him ( and if we switched to Sean as we had planned to, Brian would have noticed) and I can form some sort of alliance with Brian officially.

Or...just ditch him next round if we don't swap! LMFAO! Jefra doesn't seem to upset about the whole Carter thing, at least not outwardly. We all IMed her and PMed her beforehand but she was asleep so I think that softened the blow. This is a really important vote prior to a potential swap. If Brian is very secretive about everything going on over there, I'm going to strongly push for his early departure before a swap, because he could become a power player very quickly.

[tanya]

I suggested to Brian that RC/Ethan/Silas could be all together since they were in CYS 12 together. He didn't even know they were all season 12 (*Facepalm*). For my own paranoia, I really hope to see Silas or Ethan leave to break that up, I don't have proof of it being true but it seems very plausible, and it would kind of explain the odd way Vecepia left over RC, who was inactive for a large of the first challenge. Even so, I wouldn't mind seeing Heidi go because she is such a huge backstabbing bitch, and not everyone realizes it since her reign of terror was so long ago.

But it's not easy to get information out of Brian. I believe he is closest to Sean on our team (he voted Sean for Team leader, despite my telling Brian I was voting him) and Sean was Brian's biggest advocate for him staying in the game. So I may need to get that information through Sean, not Brian directly.


I'm really hoping for Swap!

[tanya]

Final 18: TRIBE SWAP!

Alicia is the biggest impediment to my game right now. I don't know how she is going to perceive me on the tribe but I can imagine the feeling must be mutual. She had the power on the old Paget, and supposedly Courtney, Brenda and Ciera were left on the outs, with Ciera blindsided. She's an extremely dangerous and untrustworthy player, and would throw me under the bus so fast it could make my head spin.

I kind of view Cliff as Alicia's lapdog here, I don't believe he will be showing much loyalty to Silas. Since Alicia may be difficult to rally a vote against because of her influence and activity, Cliff is a good fallback to weaken Alicia since he is generally borderline inactive and his social game only consists of dick jokes.

Originally I'd consider Courtney a bane to my existence, but we had recently made up outside the game for her behavior in one of my games that I overreacted to, and I think it was genuine. She's an outsider to Alicia's side and is someone I plan on reeling in and working ASAP, she's pretty much alone here and will probably be thrilled for some sort of formal alliance. I feel like I can talk openly to her about Alicia/Cliff without risk of it going back to them and we will be co-conspirators here.

Ian and I have a rocky history in gobi desert but I'm hoping he putting that aside for the bigger picture here. The way I see the game right now there is the CYS 12 crowd (Minus Cliff) who are working together and Alicia's crowd, which I am not sure if Ian has been roped into or not. I need to be wary of how much trust I put into Ian because his status with Alicia is an unknown, I know Savage is working with her, it isn't a stretch to think Ian will be too.

I have a pretty good relationship with Jay, and being that he doesn't really have connections from past seasons and he isn't particularly super active, Jay will be an early attack along with Cliff I suspect. This means Jay kind of doesn't have too many options but to work with me, and he is pretty easy going with vote.

I believe Jefra is over Carter's "blindside", but she isn't the most open-minded person either. I need to feel her out and see if she will be willing to make the leap to vote for Cliff or Alicia. I think Courtney also has a decent relationship with her and may be able to talk some sense into her, she's a bit of a wild card but could be a very key vote.

RC is a total unknown to me right now and another possible easy target. The fact she was saved and Vecepia left in her place does speak volumes though, and I'm pretty confident RC is going to be at leats somewhat in Silas's pocket.

Silas and I had a wonderful talk tonight, nothing game related but we have a lot in common and he is easy to talk to. I'm going to propose an alliance with him pronto. I also need to inquire from him where Ian stands with him and RC and if he's worth the risk of including in some sort of alliance with us, but I am anticipating Silas and Courtney to be my 2 closest allies in this group, it takes 5 for Majority so as long as we can pull in 2 of RC/Jay/Jefra we should hold the power and can get Cliff/Alicia out of here ASAP. Alicia is without a doubt a much bigger threat, but I don't want to go on a losing spree, the other tribe is overall more active than this one, and voting off Alicia first could lead to a downward spiral.

So as it stands, my tribe Ranking would be:

1. Courtney

2. Silas

3. Jay

4. Jefra

5. RC

6. Ian

7. Alicia

8. Cliff

[tanya]

RC keeps herself invisible on the board! That explained why we all thought she inactive.

She's a fun one, definitely cheered me up today with Facebook posts of fucked up text messages.

Alicia has not set a word to me or in the group chat since arriving here, and Cliff's behavior and blatant celebration of his inactivity and trolling I don't care for. He's insult to the game and it's clear his win in 12 was due completely to bitterness directed at Yul. 

Jay has also kind of gone inactive so it may be difficult to justify him staying. I don't believe we are winning this challenge based off our activity levels and the way these match ups fell,,but I kinda want to go to Tribal Council anyways

[tanya]

Well Silas shed some light on things, Vecepia-Heidi and Malcolm tried to make a move on him that failed pretty miserably. Jamie and Ian sided with him though, and I been trying to throw some shade on Ian for him being kinda of supportive of Alicia in Gobi Desert. Regardless we have the votes for Alicia and/or Cliff to go (The only 2 black people on the tribe of course, maybe my tribe is racist?).







Tanya Vance 10:22 am
=-O I didnt know it was that close

Silas Gaither 10:22 am
Yeah it was a 4-3 vote I was so nervous lol
Apparently Malcolm/Bob/Morgan were an alliance in Transylvania? Someone said that
So i think he'll go to them

Tanya Vance 10:23 am
Yes
they were against me there
I was Phillip

Silas Gaither 10:24 am
Oh lol
How did you go?

Tanya Vance 10:24 am
Morgan used an idol

Tanya Vance 10:24 am
and blindsided me

Silas Gaither 10:24 am
Aw

Tanya Vance 10:24 am
at Final 5

Silas Gaither 10:24 am
Do those players know that you're Phillip?

Tanya Vance 10:25 am
a lot of them do yea
OH Morgan/Bob/Malcolm, oh yes they do

Silas Gaither 10:26 am
Malcolm/Heidi were trying to protect Vecepia cause they knew her from a past season/games, so it was super shady. Cause Vecepia wasn't even active...
I know Malcolm was pissed at us after he was on the outs of that first vote. So I'm glad he's not on my tribe lol


Silas Gaither 10:37 am
It's cause Ethan was joining our tribe cause of the twist, and they knew we were from the same season and thought he'd be with me/RC I guess
Ethan was inactive lol
In this game
He had computer problems or something
Jamie wasn't around much either

Tanya Vance 10:38 am
ahh that makes sense..I bet Malcolm was voted for Tribe Leader so he couldnt vote to save Heidi

Silas Gaither 10:38 am
I think so yeah. But I'm pretty sure Heidi would've left anyway
Like she didn't even campaign to Brian/Savage lol, I'm pretty sure

Tanya Vance 10:39 am
so much for the Legendary Heidi

[tanya]

So we lost, and Jay REALLY dropped the ball here, we could have easily won, and Jay could have easily beaten Ethan's terrible 87 minute time. It's extremely frustrating, but even with these results, RC and Silas are still on track for taking out Alicia and Cliff first. Jay is skating on thin ice and if he doesn't show back sometime soon it might switch back to him. My initial chat with RC and Silas was pushing for Cliff to go first, which makes sense, he isn't useful in challenges and Alicia is. But then, Jefra showed me the Luv Shack clue, and something major occurred to me:

Alicia went to Luv Shack round 1, and has had multiple opportunities to make a guess. She could easily have an idol ( as well as that lying bitch Morgan! Surely noting she didn't wanna tell me about the Luv Shack, shows she doesnt trust me 100%). I went out on a limb and told Silas about the clue. It's either a huge mistake, or big trust builder long term. It could already be found, but I rather it be found by someone I'm close with than someone I don't know. I'm putting a lot of my eggs into Silas's basket now, though RC never told him her luv Shack clue (so I'm showing him more loyalty than RC has).

So Silas and I hatched a plan...we are gonna blindside Alicia. That way, if she does have an idol, we take it out of play. Taking out Cliff first is safer, but Alicia could have an idol and know she's next, which would make the next vote kinda complicated. 

Tanya Vance 9:44 pm 

well I wouldnt mind going right for Alicia, but Cliff is probably smarter if we wanna win the next challenge 

Silas Gaither 9:44 pm 

I feel the same way 

I think Alicia's more of a threat, but I want to win and Cliff isn't very good at challenges 

Tanya Vance 9:45 pm 

oh...actually I just realized something 

Silas Gaither 9:45 pm 

What?  

Tanya Vance 9:45 pm 

RC never shared the Luv Shack clue with you? 

Silas Gaither 9:45 pm 

No 

She just said it was hard lol 

Tanya Vance 9:46 pm 

Jefra showed me, I havent told anyone else yet though 

i.imgur.com/O8WvhmE.png 

It's not for that password 

Silas Gaither 9:47 pm 

Oh right. Thanks! 

Tanya Vance 9:47 pm 

they can guess one time...everyday:-X  

Silas Gaither 9:47 pm 

Didn't Alicia go to Luv Shack? 

Tanya Vance 9:47 pm 

YES 

that what I just realized 

I think there were less clues there when she did 

Silas Gaither 9:47 pm 

Would she have the idol you think? 

Tanya Vance 9:47 pm 

thats what I'm wondering 

she would have had a lot of guesses by now 

Silas Gaither 9:48 pm 

Hmm :/  

Tanya Vance 9:48 pm 

and Morgan too

Tanya Vance 9:52 pm 

Yea, me too. Maybe we should go for Alicia, and let her think it's Jay going? 

Silas Gaither 9:52 pm 

I'd be up for that 

If the others are 

Tanya Vance 9:52 pm 

Im worried Ian would tell her 

Silas Gaither 9:52 pm 

If Cliff goes and she has the idol, she'd for sure play it next time 

Tanya Vance 9:52 pm 

Yes 

Tanya Vance 9:53 pm 

omg that'd be terrible 

Silas Gaither 9:53 pm 

Yes  

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Silas Gaither 10:35 pm 

So right now are you thinking Cliff or Alicia? 

Tanya Vance 10:35 pm 

Alicia:-X  

Silas Gaither 10:35 pm 

Alicia's better at challenges but more sneaky and might have the idol 

Yeah, I'm thinking too 

Tanya Vance 10:36 pm 

cause like you said, if Cliff goes and she stays with an idol 

Tanya Vance 10:36 pm 

then we'd have to split the vote or something crazy 

if me or you find the idol tomorrow though, we can go with Cliff first 

Silas Gaither 10:38 pm 

Yes. I'd be fine with either at the end of the day. it's just the idol thing really 

Tanya Vance 10:39 pm 

I hope Jay comes back 

Silas Gaither 10:42 pm 

Same